follwong jaynell

HI I SHALL DO MY DEDICATION TOO x)
jaynell seah you are damn sweeeet.
<3


Hi jaynell this is a damn awesome picture x)
okay hahaha thanks for being there for me when i need it can. <3 when i was in p3 haha encountered some friendship problem. (: thansk for being there tgt with Jieyi haha if not... I don't know what i would do. but luckily everything is okay now and i'm glad that i made even more friends like you (:
yes i agreed with you that well, i really want to appeal out of guides. It's not that i hate guides, its just that i cant believe i am so lousy not to get in choir. the feeling is like unexplainable but then when it happened to you i felt really depressed.
thus i told myself i am going to be a choir-ian forever.
but when i failed my second chance in choir, i knew i wasnt the material for choir.
so i just put all my heart into Guides.
I thought i started to hate myself, not Guides, but I don't want to admit so.
I thought everything in guides is for granted.
I still havent get over the fact that I'm in Guides until mrs poh announced that we are going to change patrols.
I guessed I have to wake up then (:
I am not going to waste 1 single min in guides zuo- boing now.
thanks woman, you helped me go through all this. love you.

orientation prep~

orientation for the year ones these few days~
tiring? yes.
so what if I am in publicity. Yes it is very siok, you sit down and you paint and you wrap and you talk.
but my muscle ache are not better than any of you.
Looking at how Seehian is so worried about the overall deco, It's kinda stressful.
yes, it is indeed more peaceful then the gadgets ppl out there.
I am not complaining anymore. everybody else is doing the same thing. I don't see the year 2s commenting anything about hte muscle aches.
dont mention the year 3s.
get over it. (:
laaa i am preparing to go school alr byeeee~

omfg. -.-

what can i say, may i ask you.
we have all the respect for you, and you have to just destroy the respect.
please, can you like, you know, care about our self esteem?
We have a lot of respect for y'all already.
Sometimes you really do have to see the worst of everything.
I don't know what i can do.
I can't scold, I can't scream.
Just because we have all the respect for you.
We appreciate it, but can you like put yourselves in our shoes?
Don't assume everything.
请不要把我们的自尊心践踏在你们脚下。
seriously. ):
why can you be all so nice to yours and not to others.
why everything of yours is right.
yes indeed, i'm at my worst mood.
I know this is not right.
But what can i do.
I'm condemned. by something called respect.
Respect.
I do respect.
Show some respect first.
Respect comes because you are our elder.
we try very hard.
So please. Respect.

a dream that won't come true.

I have a dream today.
A dream i knew that would never come true.
but it had never appear in my dream for as long as i can remember.
or is this the first time.
no matter what,
that is a very weird dream.
Dreams don't come true.
But i thought is was real.
I imagined it being real.
I opened my eyes, and suddenly the dream disappeared.
I went back to the dream, and yes it did continue.
It is a stupid dream for someone like me.
yet this is the only dream, only dream that i remember every single detail so vividly, even until now.
not nightmares. it's a dream.
wtf what's with me and dreams. -.-

爱你。至死不渝。

如果我的爱给你了任何负担
请相信我
那是因为我的心太沉重
赖在有你的空间中
一一不肯放手。。。

我爱你。至死不渝。


OMG T.T

omg!

omg wtf 江尹湛
i think he's so cuteeeee rawr.
can he dont dieeeeee T.T
okay fine, just to update, i am currently reading the long awaited outsider. OMG i tell you i read until i want to die.
Everybody keep crying and crying and crying like no business.
and probably because of it's origin, the translated version very not nice to read.
RAWR I WANNA UNDERSTAND KOREAN.
but back to the point....
CAN THEY STOP CRYING.
that's why i hate Bella like shit.
kay sorry. I mean like just stop crying. If not for the sake that i want to know the ending so freaking badly and moan about why yinzhan have to die
i may just burn the book!
it's a story that is very very sad rawrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY ALL OF THEM HAVE TO DIE.
and can they speak clearly, make their intentions like known!!!!
omg i hate this feeling.
):
i love my yinzhan rawr.
he is the only cute one.
T.T
RAWR I WANNA BE A LION

Life's unfair, and it sucks to be a universal truth.

seriously, can life get better.
I mean like, the expectations of people that people have are like, unreachable. they cant be more compromising with their expectations. They have to set unreasonable stuff that shoot daggers at people when they said it out loud.
Seriously， what if you are better? how much better? you sure you are better?
please, seriously. whatever you think, just put it in your heart please.

1.) IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY', YOU SAY?

虽然我愿意 [ ;o]


2.) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

Paradise - 李雅微 [i'm such a happy person.]


3.)WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

X - JJ lin. [ LOL?!]


4.) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
我们的纪念 - 李雅微 [ i dont exactly feel emo today.]



5.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

我还想她 - JJ lin [ wow!]


6.)WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

心墙 - 郭静 [ haha]


7.) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

翅膀 - JJ lin [ WOW I'M A BIRD THANKS.]


8.) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

You belong with me - Taylor Swift [ HAHAHA AWWW.]


9.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

转动 - JJ lin [ yeah i think about JJ often x)]


10.) WHAT IS 2+2?

你不知道的事 - 王力宏 [ BEST ANSWER (Y) ]

11.) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

杀手-JJ LIN [ OMG HAHA what's this.]

12.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE ABOUT?

无法克制 - JJ LIN [ OMG i do self restrain myself ]

13.) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Full of Sunshine. [ I wanna be a sun? OH COOL (H)]

14.)WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

冻结 - JJ lin [ nice.]


15.) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Ring Ding Dong - SHINee [ wow omg Crystal must be my husband]

16.) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

一个又一个 - jj lin. [ omg thats a sad song]


17.) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

如果我变成回忆 - tank [ what!]


18.)WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

表达爱 - JJ LIN [ wow makes sense at least]


19.) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Paradise - T-max [ what so ironic]


20.)WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

小酒窝 - JJ LIN Charlene Choi [ i want a dimple hah x)]


21.) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Baby Baby - JJ lin [ x)]


22.)WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?

大男人 小女孩。 [ LOL]


kay this is a note that i found on facebook which i decided to do since i have nothing better to do.
but now i found somethign to do so yeah bye blogger I'm gonna abandon you! x)

A day at Marina Square.

okay, this is one of the most okay photo of me found in the album. others look like shit. HAIZ WHAI LIDDAT.
kay but anyway, the focus was supposed to be on marcus. It was Tiffany's brithdaythat day so it was kind of like coincidental haha! So we went off and they spent quite a lot of time deciding what to eat. But it was like super early for lunch so i didnt have the "feel" to join them in their discussion. But it was damn epic to see the imaginary boundary line between the boys and the girls. But overall i thought it was quite okay (: kay so they went bowling but I didnt bowl because :
1. i don't want to embarrass myself RAWRRR.
2. I don't feel like.
kay whatever crap reasons lah. so i talked to Tiffany about ATC. ATC just evoked so much feelings within us that we could talk until they finished bowling. At first iw was all okay but they figured how to manipulate the machine so everything was " EH GIVE HIM STRIKE LAH STRIKE LAH!" or " EH HAHAHA DONT TELL HIM/HER AH FOUL HER FOUL HER!" so yeah the game "viciously" ended.
while walking out of the bowling place we saw this arcade so that rich boy go and change $$ and within 2 tries he caught an limited edition plush toy. Everybody was like " OMG MARCUS HAN WTF." so he happily went to the person and tell her which toy he wanted. Unfortunately, it was out of stock so if you want to see Marcus tomorrow go Marina Square @ 6 plus to see him <:
but anyway when the person put back the toy into the machine he caught it again so the person had to find another time. If it was me i would be very very pissed at marcus but i was already pissed at his huge amount of luck he possessed.
kay so he happily went off. with another toy in his hand and ANOTHER one collecting today. RAWR.
after that we went to eat. I didnt want to eat Seoul Garden because all i thought was losing fats but i think it was a happy occasion and i shouldn't be this petty >: but anyway we had a happy time in Seoul Garden eating food so i think all the fats were all worth it. (:
kay so we went back after this. they were all like : " EH WANT GO KBOX ONOT AH"
then they were like very very excited like that.
so wasted ): Marcus asked me if i wanted to go eariler on but i knew nobody would want to sing because they were not in the " OMG LET'S SING TILL WE DIE" mood. now i could sense that they were but still, we had to go!
WASTED UGH ):
but anyway, even without the KBOX part, i think all was quite fun and yeah, i hoped Marcus enjoyed his time and tiffany too, in the midst of celebrating for marcus yet having fun on her own birthday!

kay i like today. (:

I'm disgusting. I'm disgusted.

it's true. i hate myself sometimes. ugh.



so cute right hahah!



kay anyway. today i went to bubble's house!!! <: for something that is not to be told here until tmr. basically you know what lah.
after finishing that something we camwhore luh and we watch 蜡笔小新! kay i think i know it's damn lame but hahahaha it's super funny!!! then we talk talk talk.
seriously, sometimes something cannot be forced. it just make everything more irritating. i prefer the past.
but anyway. haiz. ):

旧情重燃？

from http://hkgirl4ever60.xanga.com/655135422/item/

yesh, i'm totally re in-love with this show again aww manz. ): I remeber there was the time when i watc hthis show like nobody's business. and obsess and spazz over it, of course.
Onsess over it until i wish SG will play this show. ):I think it did, though. (:
this is an awesome awesome awesome awesome show!
but it's like 2 years back ):
I don't care if Jimmy Lin is already attached. The point is i like his role with Xia Zhi Xing in the show. only the show <: I think they are damn sweeet.
i like them alot.

she's so unreasonable.

):
i'm angry. I knew i should have my respect and everything, but wait till she show me some respect too. for all my life it's always like that. She always complain that i have no respect for her. She thinks that other people have respect. everybody except me. even the most terrible girl who speaks so crudely.
fine. i'm sick and tired of everything.
you never knew what i'm thinking. you assume everything. You always say that i'm to frigging stubborn to admit whatever that i'm in the wrong. You always say that i have a bad personality and everything that's why i have a poor communication skills with the rest of the world.
you always make us of my trust in you, for whatever happens i will tell you, to make me angry when i am sad.
you never appreciate whatever i have done. one mistake i made is 1 fatal move that the rest of my doings are just worthless in your eyes.
Always is a strong word, i know. but i learnt that from you.
you always tell other people that being competitive is no good, but here you are pressing me until i can't even breathe a single shit.
i learnt everything from you. So whatever i said that made you detested, are you trying to say you hate yourself for saying such things too?
you got angry because i got 2B. not including history. yeha, and you think i'm happy too. but the shit is, this is y1 only. parents don't really give a shit if you get some B's. and not like i don't have As! or A plus.
Sorry, the time where A* for every subject doesn't exist anymore. i'm not a genius. go get a genius if you like geniuses so much.
you complain that i could not doing anything but just sit down and play com and watch tv. what can i do? you said i never ever master any skills. but whatever i wanted when i was young, you didn't gave me.
you told me, and i believed that, studies is the only priority.
i was hell damn wrong when i came to sec school. but you are unwilling.
so what's the point of you complaining anyway?
When i got into one of the top schools, you ask me to go to a neighbourhood school.
you thought you can really accept a low grade? no you can't. you don't care at all. just as long as i can present a beautiful report card, you don't care if i am being depised as a nerd, or whether i'm under stress.
i have a life.
no you just only care about studies. I am accepting my CCA alr. what more do you want. Sometimes just accept what life gives you.
You are always able to understand other people but not me.
You always criticise my friends. seriously. i hate this.
i know this post sounds so disrespectful. but i dont give a damn anymore. i'm doing my best to suppresss all my anger. This post is written nicely alr.
I don't want to hide my feelings like a hypocrite.

Interclass.

this was the song that i found on youtube. It's so meanignful that i almost cried T.T
it's the tune to jin sha bu ke si yi and by2 ai de shuang chong mo li. the 3 versions are good, but jin sha version is cuter. but I dont really like jin sha voice so i prefer by2's more, cuz by2 singing skills are super good! although this guy sings okay okay , but i think he brought the feeling out for the song so yeah.
here are the lyrics. it's super (Y)

#当走进大社会 奉献少 骂战多
相识接着拆伙 朋友仔没有几个 几个
敌人很多 少一个不算少 多一个都太多
当初唱字母歌 学会的 未算多
终于领悟更多 人跌倒又上一课 一课
夕阳之歌 剩低这首挽歌 想起我当初

那年一起静坐抗议 那年一起玩物丧志
那年一起暗恋 然后失恋了默默扶持
那年班长竞选 才学会政治

#~

校门即使 逐一给光阴上锁 都紧记当初

某人新婚席上再见 笑容显得特别腼腆
那年一起口益交 无奈今天以静默无言
我们交出那款 循例性的笑面

当走进大社会 是与非右与左
当中价值太多 朋友仔没有几个几个
聚头不多 推搪有工作多
多亲切都变生疏

不想唱立志歌 立志么？
彼此背负太多
随每天习惯经过经过 为谁奔波？
获得比当初在多 比不上当初

repeat chorus #

so nice right. (: inspirational.

k today is interclass. so i woke uo early and took gengwei's car. OMG crystal i'm super sorry i didn't know u meant taking mrt tgt. ): my team strted @ 8 15 so i must be there by that time! sorry sorry! and sorry for not replying ur sms bcuz my stupid phone cannot receive msgs once the inbox overload and you nvr delete them ): SORRY MAX. *bow*
k anway, we went there happily to see them training and everything. the heat was sweltering andi think i may melt in that head. my sweat drip like a tap that is turned on AND BLAH BLAH BLAH. and i was wearing sch uniform plus tie! i realised i was quite stupid because apparently not everybody is wearing their tie anymore. but i thought that the tie wasn't really that suffocating and i like the tie so whatever.
our class girls was zai lah (Y) although many injuries [ KAITING AND JITMIN!!! rest well and jiayou kays! the team needs you! ] , but overall we still (Y)
the boys kena thrashed by 1A, but they got their score back when the were competing against 1K so i guessed they were average. Can't expect much from them because we have no bballer. (: but i think the boys put in a lot of effort bah. They bleed for all cases of injuries. which was quite sad. ):
so i stayed @ the boy side with raenyse. it was kind of ERRRR. because there's only 2 girls supporting 1G boys when you can see a whole role of 1B and 1L girls sitting at the bball court watching their class play.
i mean like. 2. 2. 2.
I am not trying to like, whatever. but think about it. i think Clarence was being nice. when kaiting fell, he was the first one to rush and get ice. without prompting if i'm not wrong. he watched the girls play and gave his opinion to raenyse.
When the girls won, the whole group of girls cheered for them.
When they miss, they still have the girls to cheer them to.
But when the boys win, they can only celebrate amongthe meagre 9.
When they lose, they have to share their disappointment within each other.
I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND THAT THEY HAD THE SAME TIMING FOR THE GAME SO IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO WATCH THE BOYS PLAY AND IGNORE THE GIRLS. i wouldnt do that. For what i know, i am still a girl. i am supporting my own kind.
But for what i know, we are a class. a mixed class.
Why do have such a big gap between one gender from the other?
it's okay when the girls play and we all stay there and support them. But when they are not? had there forgotten about our second half our the class?
Sorry. this may sound some kind of boy crazy post. But i don't care. This is not the first time i have met this kind of insult anyway.
BUT. HOWEVER. HOWEVER. i am not trying to like, discriminate the girl's effort or anything. I LOVE THE GRALEX GIRL'S TEAM AND APPRECIATE WHATEVER THEY HAVE DONE. i am being totally serious here ohkayee.
whoever is reading this, i hope you understand. it's difficult to put explanation in words.
but seriously. i am proud of the girls' and boys' team. <3

感动每一刻(:

omg yes after months i finally bought the album！*happy dance* it cost me like 35 dollars which almost bankrupted me but there's great information about JJ so i dont mind!
I love that song. Not only because JJ is there, but because Stephanie is back! oh i miss her voice. quite unexpected actually. I am not some big fan of her, but i think it's nice to hear her voice again! especially when she is representing spore!
and Ah Du is back! HAH. i miss him too.
overall i think the song is just (Y)
okay today i simply rot at home. i walked around, spam the com and i think i am close to having no life so i chose to watch tv instead. idk how that make me have a life but whatever.
I spazz bout JJ again with Marcus on msn! hahah i rediscover that cornetto advertisement. I think that advertisement is so sweeeeeeet. i like the way JJ sing fa xian ai in that advertisement.
and thus, marcus is currently spazzing about how awesome is fa xian ai and qi dai ai!
HOHOHO.
kay then Crystal spazz about her SHINee again. she pleaded me to watch Hello baby but HAHAHA!
okay i shall go and find some random survey instead. ah i see. From vanessa's blog, older posts.

Ready for the most random questions known to quiz history?
no.

Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
wts.

What happened last time you got drunk?
it wasn't really drunk but i got this major fever.

Have you taken off someone’s pants recently?
mine -.- okay but basically no.
Do you bite your toe nails?
?!

If someone said to you “nice ass” you say?
yours nicer.

Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like, what do you do?
nothing. o.o

Last thing you said out loud?
HAHAHAHA.

Last time you laughed your head off?
i forgot.

What do you want right this second?
MY JJ SIXOLOGY ABLUM T.T

How are you sitting?
in a quite obscene way.

Can I have your number?
no.

Your mood?
mood-less
Do certain alcohols make you have different emotions and what?
ask me for what.

If you could change one thing this year about your life would you?
yeah.
Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
no ex LOL

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
NANA! <3

Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
I TOLD U NO EX.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
no i just spazz about freedom.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? .
not really.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
not too much.

Do you find piercings attractive?
ears are okay, but the rest are quite.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
sleeping.

Waiting for something?
kind of.

Was yesterday terrible?
okay

Did you accept or reject your last friend request?
rejected.

First middle and last name please?
heck care.

Whats your favorite number?
7/9

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
not really.

Who is your last received call from?
Gengweiiii <3.

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
forgot.

How many cigarettes have you smoked today?
not smoking o.o

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
sometimes.

Have you ever kissed underneath the stars?
AWW SO ROMANTIC BUT no.

Do you like potato chips?
hell yes.

Do you give out second chances way to easily?
maybe?

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
not really i guessed o.o

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
clearing out my room.

What did you do last night?
sleep.

Explain why you last threw up?
my stomach wanted me to

What cell phone company do you use?
Samsung.

Have you text voted for an American Idol?
no.

Hot tea or Iced tea?
iced.

What was the weather like today?
hot and humid.

Where did your last hug take place?
forgot

What are you excited for?
kind of tmr.

Last person you spoke to?
my dad.

Are you ticklish?
sightly.

Are your ears pierced?
Yep.

Bar soap or body wash?
body! bar so troublsome.

Do you chew on your straws?
super lot of times. unless i am sharing drinks then i will be mindful.

Do you have curly hair?
no, not exactly.

Where did you go today?
rot at home

What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
depends

What is something you say a lot?
what the shit.

What are you doing tonight?
watch ai

What was your last missed call?
Gengwei.

Do you have a nickname?
a lot.

What are you listening to?
nothing in particular.

Is there anyone you like right now?
no.

Did you cry today?
no, i am a happy girl.

How big is your bed?
Single.

Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
yeah. (: from my school too.

Do you have a globe in your house?
no.

Number of pillows you sleep with?
1

What type of watch do you wear?
white. LOL

Can you play pool?
no.
Craziest place you have slept?
house.

Would you ever lie to get an ex back?
depends.

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Ever kissed your friend’s boyfriend or girlfriend?
no,

If given a chance, would you like to have your ex back?
STOP TALKING BOUT MY EX I DONT HAVE ONE.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
no.

What last made you laugh?
my mum ..

What were you doing last night around 3 am?
sleeping.

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
I dont HAVE too.

Have you ever slapped someone?
last time LOL. there was this slapping game that i just realised wasn't very fun. i wonder why i was so retarded to get myself slap everytime.

What was the last thing you drank?
water.

Do you think there are circumstances when it’s okay to wait for someone?
yes.

Is there anyone in the room with you?
nope.

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
no.

What’s your last scar from?
some weird insect bit me and got some gruesome scar there.

Can you count on anyone to be there for you, always?
yes.

Do you ever miss your past?
yes.
Is it possible to be single and happy?
of course.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive.

Will you sleep alone tonight?
no.

Do you think being “heart broken” is as bad as people say?
yes.

Do you prefer ily, or i love you?
I love you.

Who’s car were you in last?
Gengwei's .

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
older.

Are you aiming anyone while doing this?
i not so boliao lol.

Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?
no.

Have you ever been so embarrassed that you cried?
kind of.

Do you live near your friends?
some of them.

What do i spell now. "Freedom".

omg i finally had the feeling of freedom. Although PSLE isn't very far away from me but the feeling just, whoosed past me again!
I wonder why though. It is just a y1 EOY. i treat it like i was taking the PSLE. maybe even more seriously.
but whatever, it's over. I AM BACK TO STALK MY JJ.
there's a period of time when i was wondering whether my idolisation for JJ will fade off soon. I really wondered. and i was kind of scared and everything.
but then i realised, JJ is irreplaceable. i think this sound very corny. but i think i just love him.
He might not be the most dashing guy on Earth, but he has a remarkable talent. He knows a wide variety of things, piano, composing songs, bbox, dance(!) and everything else. He does not flaunt his other talents a lot, but his talent for singing has made it's mark in the music industry.
I don't play any instrument like him, i am not good in dance, I am not planning to be a singer like him. Why do i say i get the inspiration from him?
because i think his perseverance for everything paid off. Most importantly, he made Singapore proud of him.
I think that's what i have with him in common. We are both Singaporeans. But i aspire to be like him. I want to make Singapore proud.
Probably I do not need to be world-famous. but i just want to do Singapore proud.
I almost cried when i saw the video about him meeting the girl. He's just so... nice.
Despite the You are the one singapore song, despite everything, i just love JJ.
:D

I think i really prefer blogger.

omg i'm backkkk :D today is firday and i am proud to say i squandered my holidays away yay :D
I just had a msn conversation with junle. I think i should remain optimistic because, yeah (: sometimes, they just do exist everywhere. it's a matter of how you treat them.
I think she can't forgive me. but i did that for a reason. Selfish reason, whatever reason, i think i'm right. I should just move on. because i think i am better off still.
try. try (: