she's so unreasonable.

):
i'm angry. I knew i should have my respect and everything, but wait till she show me some respect too. for all my life it's always like that. She always complain that i have no respect for her. She thinks that other people have respect. everybody except me. even the most terrible girl who speaks so crudely.
fine. i'm sick and tired of everything.
you never knew what i'm thinking. you assume everything. You always say that i'm to frigging stubborn to admit whatever that i'm in the wrong. You always say that i have a bad personality and everything that's why i have a poor communication skills with the rest of the world.
you always make us of my trust in you, for whatever happens i will tell you, to make me angry when i am sad.
you never appreciate whatever i have done. one mistake i made is 1 fatal move that the rest of my doings are just worthless in your eyes.
Always is a strong word, i know. but i learnt that from you.
you always tell other people that being competitive is no good, but here you are pressing me until i can't even breathe a single shit.
i learnt everything from you. So whatever i said that made you detested, are you trying to say you hate yourself for saying such things too?
you got angry because i got 2B. not including history. yeha, and you think i'm happy too. but the shit is, this is y1 only. parents don't really give a shit if you get some B's. and not like i don't have As! or A plus.
Sorry, the time where A* for every subject doesn't exist anymore. i'm not a genius. go get a genius if you like geniuses so much.
you complain that i could not doing anything but just sit down and play com and watch tv. what can i do? you said i never ever master any skills. but whatever i wanted when i was young, you didn't gave me.
you told me, and i believed that, studies is the only priority.
i was hell damn wrong when i came to sec school. but you are unwilling.
so what's the point of you complaining anyway?
When i got into one of the top schools, you ask me to go to a neighbourhood school.
you thought you can really accept a low grade? no you can't. you don't care at all. just as long as i can present a beautiful report card, you don't care if i am being depised as a nerd, or whether i'm under stress.
i have a life.
no you just only care about studies. I am accepting my CCA alr. what more do you want. Sometimes just accept what life gives you.
You are always able to understand other people but not me.
You always criticise my friends. seriously. i hate this.
i know this post sounds so disrespectful. but i dont give a damn anymore. i'm doing my best to suppresss all my anger. This post is written nicely alr.
I don't want to hide my feelings like a hypocrite.

Interclass.

this was the song that i found on youtube. It's so meanignful that i almost cried T.T
it's the tune to jin sha bu ke si yi and by2 ai de shuang chong mo li. the 3 versions are good, but jin sha version is cuter. but I dont really like jin sha voice so i prefer by2's more, cuz by2 singing skills are super good! although this guy sings okay okay , but i think he brought the feeling out for the song so yeah.
here are the lyrics. it's super (Y)

#当走进大社会 奉献少 骂战多
相识接着拆伙 朋友仔没有几个 几个
敌人很多 少一个不算少 多一个都太多
当初唱字母歌 学会的 未算多
终于领悟更多 人跌倒又上一课 一课
夕阳之歌 剩低这首挽歌 想起我当初

那年一起静坐抗议 那年一起玩物丧志
那年一起暗恋 然后失恋了默默扶持
那年班长竞选 才学会政治

#~

校门即使 逐一给光阴上锁 都紧记当初

某人新婚席上再见 笑容显得特别腼腆
那年一起口益交 无奈今天以静默无言
我们交出那款 循例性的笑面

当走进大社会 是与非右与左
当中价值太多 朋友仔没有几个几个
聚头不多 推搪有工作多
多亲切都变生疏

不想唱立志歌 立志么？
彼此背负太多
随每天习惯经过经过 为谁奔波？
获得比当初在多 比不上当初

repeat chorus #

so nice right. (: inspirational.

k today is interclass. so i woke uo early and took gengwei's car. OMG crystal i'm super sorry i didn't know u meant taking mrt tgt. ): my team strted @ 8 15 so i must be there by that time! sorry sorry! and sorry for not replying ur sms bcuz my stupid phone cannot receive msgs once the inbox overload and you nvr delete them ): SORRY MAX. *bow*
k anway, we went there happily to see them training and everything. the heat was sweltering andi think i may melt in that head. my sweat drip like a tap that is turned on AND BLAH BLAH BLAH. and i was wearing sch uniform plus tie! i realised i was quite stupid because apparently not everybody is wearing their tie anymore. but i thought that the tie wasn't really that suffocating and i like the tie so whatever.
our class girls was zai lah (Y) although many injuries [ KAITING AND JITMIN!!! rest well and jiayou kays! the team needs you! ] , but overall we still (Y)
the boys kena thrashed by 1A, but they got their score back when the were competing against 1K so i guessed they were average. Can't expect much from them because we have no bballer. (: but i think the boys put in a lot of effort bah. They bleed for all cases of injuries. which was quite sad. ):
so i stayed @ the boy side with raenyse. it was kind of ERRRR. because there's only 2 girls supporting 1G boys when you can see a whole role of 1B and 1L girls sitting at the bball court watching their class play.
i mean like. 2. 2. 2.
I am not trying to like, whatever. but think about it. i think Clarence was being nice. when kaiting fell, he was the first one to rush and get ice. without prompting if i'm not wrong. he watched the girls play and gave his opinion to raenyse.
When the girls won, the whole group of girls cheered for them.
When they miss, they still have the girls to cheer them to.
But when the boys win, they can only celebrate amongthe meagre 9.
When they lose, they have to share their disappointment within each other.
I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND THAT THEY HAD THE SAME TIMING FOR THE GAME SO IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO WATCH THE BOYS PLAY AND IGNORE THE GIRLS. i wouldnt do that. For what i know, i am still a girl. i am supporting my own kind.
But for what i know, we are a class. a mixed class.
Why do have such a big gap between one gender from the other?
it's okay when the girls play and we all stay there and support them. But when they are not? had there forgotten about our second half our the class?
Sorry. this may sound some kind of boy crazy post. But i don't care. This is not the first time i have met this kind of insult anyway.
BUT. HOWEVER. HOWEVER. i am not trying to like, discriminate the girl's effort or anything. I LOVE THE GRALEX GIRL'S TEAM AND APPRECIATE WHATEVER THEY HAVE DONE. i am being totally serious here ohkayee.
whoever is reading this, i hope you understand. it's difficult to put explanation in words.
but seriously. i am proud of the girls' and boys' team. <3

感动每一刻(:

omg yes after months i finally bought the album！*happy dance* it cost me like 35 dollars which almost bankrupted me but there's great information about JJ so i dont mind!
I love that song. Not only because JJ is there, but because Stephanie is back! oh i miss her voice. quite unexpected actually. I am not some big fan of her, but i think it's nice to hear her voice again! especially when she is representing spore!
and Ah Du is back! HAH. i miss him too.
overall i think the song is just (Y)
okay today i simply rot at home. i walked around, spam the com and i think i am close to having no life so i chose to watch tv instead. idk how that make me have a life but whatever.
I spazz bout JJ again with Marcus on msn! hahah i rediscover that cornetto advertisement. I think that advertisement is so sweeeeeeet. i like the way JJ sing fa xian ai in that advertisement.
and thus, marcus is currently spazzing about how awesome is fa xian ai and qi dai ai!
HOHOHO.
kay then Crystal spazz about her SHINee again. she pleaded me to watch Hello baby but HAHAHA!
okay i shall go and find some random survey instead. ah i see. From vanessa's blog, older posts.

Ready for the most random questions known to quiz history?
no.

Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
wts.

What happened last time you got drunk?
it wasn't really drunk but i got this major fever.

Have you taken off someone’s pants recently?
mine -.- okay but basically no.
Do you bite your toe nails?
?!

If someone said to you “nice ass” you say?
yours nicer.

Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like, what do you do?
nothing. o.o

Last thing you said out loud?
HAHAHAHA.

Last time you laughed your head off?
i forgot.

What do you want right this second?
MY JJ SIXOLOGY ABLUM T.T

How are you sitting?
in a quite obscene way.

Can I have your number?
no.

Your mood?
mood-less
Do certain alcohols make you have different emotions and what?
ask me for what.

If you could change one thing this year about your life would you?
yeah.
Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
no ex LOL

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
NANA! <3

Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
I TOLD U NO EX.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
no i just spazz about freedom.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? .
not really.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
not too much.

Do you find piercings attractive?
ears are okay, but the rest are quite.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
sleeping.

Waiting for something?
kind of.

Was yesterday terrible?
okay

Did you accept or reject your last friend request?
rejected.

First middle and last name please?
heck care.

Whats your favorite number?
7/9

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
not really.

Who is your last received call from?
Gengweiiii <3.

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
forgot.

How many cigarettes have you smoked today?
not smoking o.o

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
sometimes.

Have you ever kissed underneath the stars?
AWW SO ROMANTIC BUT no.

Do you like potato chips?
hell yes.

Do you give out second chances way to easily?
maybe?

Ever stayed up all night on the phone?
not really i guessed o.o

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning?
clearing out my room.

What did you do last night?
sleep.

Explain why you last threw up?
my stomach wanted me to

What cell phone company do you use?
Samsung.

Have you text voted for an American Idol?
no.

Hot tea or Iced tea?
iced.

What was the weather like today?
hot and humid.

Where did your last hug take place?
forgot

What are you excited for?
kind of tmr.

Last person you spoke to?
my dad.

Are you ticklish?
sightly.

Are your ears pierced?
Yep.

Bar soap or body wash?
body! bar so troublsome.

Do you chew on your straws?
super lot of times. unless i am sharing drinks then i will be mindful.

Do you have curly hair?
no, not exactly.

Where did you go today?
rot at home

What 1 item do you always pick up at the grocery store?
depends

What is something you say a lot?
what the shit.

What are you doing tonight?
watch ai

What was your last missed call?
Gengwei.

Do you have a nickname?
a lot.

What are you listening to?
nothing in particular.

Is there anyone you like right now?
no.

Did you cry today?
no, i am a happy girl.

How big is your bed?
Single.

Do you know someone with the same birthday as you?
yeah. (: from my school too.

Do you have a globe in your house?
no.

Number of pillows you sleep with?
1

What type of watch do you wear?
white. LOL

Can you play pool?
no.
Craziest place you have slept?
house.

Would you ever lie to get an ex back?
depends.

Have you ever been cheated on?
no.

Ever kissed your friend’s boyfriend or girlfriend?
no,

If given a chance, would you like to have your ex back?
STOP TALKING BOUT MY EX I DONT HAVE ONE.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
no.

What last made you laugh?
my mum ..

What were you doing last night around 3 am?
sleeping.

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
I dont HAVE too.

Have you ever slapped someone?
last time LOL. there was this slapping game that i just realised wasn't very fun. i wonder why i was so retarded to get myself slap everytime.

What was the last thing you drank?
water.

Do you think there are circumstances when it’s okay to wait for someone?
yes.

Is there anyone in the room with you?
nope.

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
no.

What’s your last scar from?
some weird insect bit me and got some gruesome scar there.

Can you count on anyone to be there for you, always?
yes.

Do you ever miss your past?
yes.
Is it possible to be single and happy?
of course.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive.

Will you sleep alone tonight?
no.

Do you think being “heart broken” is as bad as people say?
yes.

Do you prefer ily, or i love you?
I love you.

Who’s car were you in last?
Gengwei's .

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
older.

Are you aiming anyone while doing this?
i not so boliao lol.

Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?
no.

Have you ever been so embarrassed that you cried?
kind of.

Do you live near your friends?
some of them.

What do i spell now. "Freedom".

omg i finally had the feeling of freedom. Although PSLE isn't very far away from me but the feeling just, whoosed past me again!
I wonder why though. It is just a y1 EOY. i treat it like i was taking the PSLE. maybe even more seriously.
but whatever, it's over. I AM BACK TO STALK MY JJ.
there's a period of time when i was wondering whether my idolisation for JJ will fade off soon. I really wondered. and i was kind of scared and everything.
but then i realised, JJ is irreplaceable. i think this sound very corny. but i think i just love him.
He might not be the most dashing guy on Earth, but he has a remarkable talent. He knows a wide variety of things, piano, composing songs, bbox, dance(!) and everything else. He does not flaunt his other talents a lot, but his talent for singing has made it's mark in the music industry.
I don't play any instrument like him, i am not good in dance, I am not planning to be a singer like him. Why do i say i get the inspiration from him?
because i think his perseverance for everything paid off. Most importantly, he made Singapore proud of him.
I think that's what i have with him in common. We are both Singaporeans. But i aspire to be like him. I want to make Singapore proud.
Probably I do not need to be world-famous. but i just want to do Singapore proud.
I almost cried when i saw the video about him meeting the girl. He's just so... nice.
Despite the You are the one singapore song, despite everything, i just love JJ.
:D