SO HIGH YET SO LOW.

HI WORLD.
i was about to write, I AM SO HIGH TODAY. but actually to think about it there's somethign to be very low about which is my maths common test RAWR.
i swear i totally screwed everything up so yeah ): Mrs Tay mentioned that there are 2 failures. Really. i think it's me. ): My mum will just kill me omg. I don't want to compare who's screwing it up more because i am very sad about it. To htink i last min chiong my indices when i don't have enough time during that week. It was songleader's week btw.
If my mum sees my bad result she will just scream and order for a change of tuition.
but the things is i just started on that tuition and it's like, kind of new to me?
to add on to it, i didn't have timeeeeee.
omg would she forgive meee.
))))):
let's just stop thinking whether she will forgive me. I can't even forgive myself brrrr.
I may even get a C for maths. tgt with history. and that goes my CA1. * waves with white hankerchief*
oh i am gonna cry soooooon ))))))):
but the thing i am highing bout it, JJ lin is on tv today (:
shall not elaborate, but really he is damn good! not in the sense of how many levels he had passed, but the way he performed. AH.
then i found an artifact! a real one, in my hands. if not for LA, i would never know i have such cool stuff. It just feels magical! like, whatever you are studying in history, it can be applicable to the thing in my hand.
To think that it's just a notebook in the past.
To think that my ancestor held that book, and that book contains so much history. physically, literally, though nothing much was written. I couldnt understand anyway. It's in japanese. isn't that cooooler.
but yeah, the feeling is magical!
(:
URGH BUT MATHS COMMON TEST SPOILS EVERYTHING. I WILL BE DEAD. i cant even forgive myselfffff.

):

The only way,
to survive is this materialistic world.
is to be less noob.
stronger, i will be.
and i won't be as noob as before.
cause you will never survive, and i had enough.

就是我(:

I AM KIND OF BACK. CAN U BELIEVE IT.

i swear that for the past few weeks, it has been overwhelming. It just feels like a whole lot of things crash down on you, and they just want you to get them completed and perfected if not they will just nibble on your conscience.
hard to balance, but at least i tried. amongst all those irritating cts. and headache when i reached home.
at that point of time, i swear i am dying soon.
but i knew there's other out there with situation's worse than me. like my seniors. I am sure they are just balancing as hard as me, but at least they still smile everyday ^^
i am just trying to follow their examples. (:
Overwhelming it may be, but who says fun is not allowed？ （：
I LOVE WHATEVER I HAVE BEEN DOING.

it was quite ah appy chinese new year i guessed. but it just the same old thing happening, i guessed there's nothing much for me to elaborate. (:

cute rightttttttttttttt. YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE HEH XIYING. and this is our first training as songleaders. imma officially proud to be a songleaders. although the trainings are rather busy and i keep straining my voice, but during campfire, i am so freaking high and really, i must that's the best time i had so far these 2 years ^^


yesh, presenting to you the cute songleaders of thinking day campfireeee! <3



HAHAHA DONT SAY I TU OKAY. but even u say i don't mind though. i am supposed to be a farmer for my chinese project! and i have to scream WO DE DOU YA in the video but all was represented by yongli when wu lao shi forbid us to do the video. yongli was not bad but of course, with the video i bet everybody will jsut roll on the ground and i promise, i will die of laughter. wanna take a peek ^^


CAN YALL SEE ALL THE DOU YA FLOATING ABOUT. YEAH THAT COST GENGWEI 30 CENTS.


time for official video taking. HAHAHA.
we wasted so much effort in the end wu lao shi say dont want. hmph hahaha but at least we got the props to school and you can imagine vanessa's hysterical laughter. (:


THEN IT'S CAF. HEH HAHAHA I PROMISE ME AND XIYING ARE HIGHING ABOUT IT. no i am the one who is more high ROFL. i was like HEY XIYING. HEY HEY HEY, ITS CAF~ HAHAHA. then she was like OMG WTH SHIHUI.
then we usher ppl to the isolated left entrance hahaha so the senior can cut ticket ^^ but the bad thing is, its too near the toilet RAWR. then when they head for the toilet we thought they are going to CAF. hahaha so me and xiying were like " HEY WELCOME TO CAF" then they were like " hahaha no i am going to the toilet/ to change" HAHAHAH. so we must be like, hi are you going for CAF? but then it's like very weird.
BUT I AM QUITE PROUD OF MYSELF TO BE AN USHER. even if it's just an usher, i believe that it's our duty to be the best usher, ever ^^
then marcus brought his polaroid cam and I WAS JUST IN TIME TO TAKE THE PHOTO WITH GRALEXIANS THAT ATTENDED THE CONCERT HEH! but i idint have a chance to see the polaroid ):
then after went outside to gather~
and sicne we were bored, i sort of camwhore with xiying heh ^^




HEH HAHAH.
after everything ended, then it was debrief. Kehui was crying very badly and touched by our hardwork hahaha. kay maybe not "our" cause i did nothing much actually, but well it's super touching kays. imagine how much stress she must be going through yet thanking us and crying because of our hard work. she deserves another round of applause yay!



manage to catch a photo with chio szeyun with her makeup and her kwel hello kitty shirttttttttttt! she look really nice with her makeup hmm！ (:

and then homed with xiying! was darn tired even though i really didnt do anything much. (except for the time when i walked around the whole exhibition. around and around. i swear, i almost fainted. but i decided it was too dramatic and embarrassing) then me and xiyign took out our polaroid and wrote on it yay ^^



tada, courtesy to marcus han ^^

well, to end off, over these overwhelming period, i thought a lot. I realise i don't need to be talented, i jsut want to be less noob. (:
I dont want to be a singer, but i longed to just sing on stage, once, just once, with any of my friends, because they thought i have a pretty voice. I thought that was enough (:
I don't aim to be a professional dancer, but at least i want ppl to think that, wow, she can dance pretty well.
I don't aim to be a musician, but i wanna ppl to say that " wow, she's pretty cool cause she can play the piano moderately well. "
I know i am not smart, in terms of academically or anything. but at least ppl can say that, eh her results not bad one leh.
i dont want to be good for everything. that's not possible. because i don't have a dream. I don't know what I want.
I could end up being just a mere OL in the company. I could end up as being involve i na job for the sake of money, i don't know, because i am so okay with everything.

but at least, behind all these, they can say I'm pretty talented.
well, that's my dream (: